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Name: parkie P.I.G
Location: deep in space~~, Solomon Islands
Birthday: 11/28/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: eat food, and lots of it too =]
Occupation: Artist
Message: message me
Member Since:
4/12/2003
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i must be going insane
veritas and aequitas. it's karma, baby.
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| This is for the sake of gettings things off my chest. To remind myself, who I am, and perhaps get a better understanding.
1) I like to sing, but I don't really like to sing in front of others. I like to act, but I don't act in front of others. I like to be my true self, but I can't in front of others.
2) I can be a perfectionist at times. I don't know, things like dirty white boards, unorganized things... I just have to fix it! OCD
3) I have a diary, but it's not the type I can handwrite in. I have Trillian and I keep my diary in one person's history (history is keeps track of conversations, but it has to be on the same computer if you want to refer back to something.)
4) I don't really like dramas, but I like writing dramas.
5) I really hate guys who are shallow enough to say a girl has no boobs or curves or something physical. Hey, unless your dick is bigger than 8 inches, shut up.
6) For some reason, I don't care if I die. It sounds emo, and it probably is, but.... yeah... whatever
7) whenever I travel ANYWHERE, i like to go to each payphone/ telephone booths and push the buttons. Then I'll rate them 1-5. (1 is poor and 5 is SUPER AWESOME).
8) I can't believe I'm making this list... 42 more things to go.
9) I keep a lot of emotions to myself, but I'm really... sensitive. I just don't like to admit it, which is why I wrote this in white. Those who are smart enough or lucky enough would be highlighting this with their mouse and read it.
10) Sometimes, mostly during the summers, I cry everyday. Just because my mom just keeps pressuring me and just make my life feel like shit.
11) I volunteer at a retirement home, but I really hate it there. Not because of the people, I love helping the grandmas and the grandpas and they're the sweetest things. But because I see them struggling, fighting to live and I see my own fate when I look at them.
12) People close to me say I have a big heart, but I question their judgement.
13) okay, here's the truth. Although I HATE makeup and I HATE dressing up, I do like to look pretty. Just wish I could do it without wearing the clothes or the make up.
14) I DO NOT get along well with guys. For some reason, guys keep misunderstanding me and I just joke around but they take it seriously and ARGH!!! I HATE GUYS! jerks...
15) I get tired easily. which is hard to believe, since most people see me jumping off the walls.
16) holy cow, when I'm alone, I'll think up a scene in my head and act it out in front of the mirror. HAHAHAHHAHAHA, that was embarassing to say. heck, nobody uses xanga anymore, so I guess it doesn't matter.
17) I practically had a crush on every guy I met.
18) ... I don't always wash my face every day....
19) ....I don't exactly take showers every day either... especially during the summer!
20) I LOVE staring out my window. Any time of the day, any day of the year. Nothin necessarily happens outside, but just looking at the colors, I really like it.
21) my sister says I have no fear, and I guess that's true every now and then. Sometimes, what doesn't scare me one day, scares me the next. One day, I'm able to kill all insects and touch them, and the next, i can't stand the sight.
22) I had my first kiss although I never had a boyfriend. I KNOW! I'M SO BAD!
23) when i get depressed, I shut myself in a closet, and sing a really despressing song with really depressing lyrics and no constant tune whatsoever.
24) My sister, brother and I are the tightest thing. They're my best friends, and together .... we form THE ULTIMATE TRIO!
25) there's still that guy I think about every now and then... actually there's like... 2...no... 3
26) i only memorized 3 telephone numbers. Mom, sister, sarah kweon. i guess it's because I keep calling her (sarah, that is). and my mom and sister's numbers are only 4 digits different
27) i'm EXTREMELY clumsy. glass shop incident... Venice, Italy.... ouch~ not a pretty sight
28) at night, when i'm by myself, I close the door and I turn up the music and dance my little heart out. and I sing along and go crazy till I faint.
29) when I'm home alone, I try to write my own songs and lyrics.
30) Most people don't believe me, but I have memories of when I was uber young. Even when I was younger than 2. And I remember how I used to think back then too. I think the way I remembered is I kept telling myself not to forget my thoughts and just every now and then, I'll remember segments.
31) I swell up when I get mosquito bites
32) I like analyzing novels and giving things a deeper meaning. but I tend to over analyze
33) I hate it when people say I'm annoying, they honestly don't know themselves how annoying THEY can be. Also I never have the guts to tell them how annoying they are, but they never seem to have a problem telling me. Ouch, my man pride, my man pride.
34) I love anything that falls from the sky. Rain, snow, hail, sleet.
35) i do have one, big fear. CUBICLES! just the mere thought of it sends shivers down my spine! I can't bare to think that one day, I will be trapped between THREE walls in a tiny corner just slaving away till the day I die. it's INHUMANE! I want to be something, and a someone.
36) I don't know why, but whenever I'm typing, I feel like I'm talking to myself or reminding myself. I don't even remember that others could be reading this, so that would make you, readers, the real audience, not me.
37) I hate it when I tell the truth and people just keep saying "sure~ right!" it just makes me want to shout "Fine! I might as well tell lies from now on!" i'm so stupid.
38) Oh my gosh... I seriously forgot the purpose of this list... is it about myself? is it a list of things I like? oh well... who cares.
39) the way to win my heart is not by flowers but just telling me something I really want to hear, the truth.
40) honestly, I want to jump off a cliff. not because I want to kill myself, but because I want that feeling of flying. I like standing on something really really high and just closing my eyes with my arms stretched out to feel the wind blow and just feel everything around me.
41) at times, I hate looking in the mirror. I just hate looking at myself.
42) this entry/ list is so emo.
43) I know this sounds so stupid and selfish of me, but I always thought that people miss me just as much as I miss them. and I tend to miss people, a LOT. So when I come back from a long trip I somewhat expect them to be extremely happy to see them just as much as I am to see them.
44) I waste time a lot by doing stupid things like making this list.
45) I didn't realize people can see me when I'm sitting in the car till i was in 5th grade. All those years... picking my nose RIGHT by the window... how embarassing.
46) I hate the feeling of being abandoned. I don't know, it's just that I grew up thinking that if you're left behind, it's because the people did care about you enough to remember you. AND MY BROTHER AND PARENTS DID THAT TO ME TWICE!!
47)... I cry when somebody does something nice for me. It makes me feel loved, and I question if I am all the time.
48) I'm really not smart at all, but I'm pretty good at making people believe I am. it doesn't take smarts to do that.
49) I like solving puzzle or riddles because I feel like I can't answer any of life's problem so why not solve A problem?
50) I'm a stagehog, I like being on center stage. NOT LITERALLY but I do like attention. it SOUNDS snobby, but admit it, don't you? everybody wants a little lovin every now and then too.
although all of these are pretty obvious and most people can agree with it, it was hard for me to share. don't know why, but just did.
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| great, i've only been gone for 2 months, and efren already goes CALAJI on my xanga. but i must say love, i like the new thingy (notice my lack of vocabulary words).
guess what guys?
I know this is gonna sound like i'm bragging, but dang it, i worked hard for this:
I GOT THROUGH FIRST ROUND OF ALLSTATE AND GHP!
yeah yeah, i know, it's only first round, so i gotta work harder for SECOND~ which i'm hoping to see my lovely efren, deedee, eunice and yadda yadda ( i don't know who else made it)
So congrats to the others who have passed first round in either GHP or allstate~
RANDOM THOUGHT: I JUST REMEMBERED AN OLD FAVORITE SONG OF MINE! it's pretty hilarious
welcome to canada
its the maple leaf state
canada, oh canada
its great
there people are nice and
they speak french too
if you don't like it man--you sniff glue
the great white north
their kilts are plaid
hosers take off
its not half bad
i want to be
where yacks can run free
where royal mounties
can harass me
let's go to canada
let's leave today
canada, oh canada
i s'il vous plait
they've got trees and mooses and sled dogs
lots of lumber and lumber jacks and logs
people think its kind of a drag
that you have to go there
to get milk in a bag
they say "eh?" instead of "what?" or "duh!"
that's the mighty power of canada
i want to be where lemmings run into the sea
where the marmosets can
attack me
lets go to canada
lets leave today
canada, oh canada
i s'il vous plait
lets go to canada
lets leave today
canada, oh canada
i s'il vous plait
will you please explain to me
how this all has come to be
we forgot to mention something here
did we say that william shatner
is a native citizen
and slurpies made from venison
that's deer
lets go to canada
lets leave today
canada, oh canada
i s'il vous plait
lets go to canda
lets leave today
canada, oh canada
i a'il vous plait
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| to my lovely efrem,
its been gruesome out here in this cruel world of ours, but with your love i carry on. I can't express how much i miss you and how much i wub you. i know this war is tearing us apart, but somehow, in god's name, we'll make it through. the summers have been blasted hot and the winters have been harshly cold. theres very few resources left in the camp and i'm not sure how long we'll be able to survive. We live in fear everyday thinking that the mexicans will attack at any given moment. Oh how i long to see your beautiful face of yours again. So I must leave you with a farewell and a hope that i'll be home safely. In time, we will unite once again and carry on the efrem/efren-ness.
your dearly beloved,
efren
WHOAA!!! I AM SO AWESOMELY COOOL!! NO WAY?? WAYYY~ i tried to make it like a war note... but it just turned out wierd. okay well parkie I MISS-ED YOU OH SO MUCH!! | | |
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